oreo...oreo

2008-04-07T10:22:00.000-07:00

Life is getting busier...with project work and the camp.but still my frens make it so worth it.they came over to see us during our camp.i was so happy.i was so touched by them.and her some pics to show the different ways we had fun with one another.

Just the 5 of us

2007-07-31T23:55:00.000-07:00

Here goes, life been the same. School home school home. Nothing's new. So tiring everyday..... Sleeping late, waking up early... I dont know whats going on. I hope all these will end soon.... Finding peace in myself in this fast paced society.. The class people are cool... We hang out till late... We have sports day together.... I think they are a bunch of cuties, always making me laugh... Never feel alone with them... I am having VI now, pure bore. June is blogging, oh wait, i am June! Hahas! Ok, SOOOO not funny. So yea, must be in the mindset of Hari. The dot/turtle/black/chocolate and the list goes on. Will blog again some time soon.

This is Missy June signing off. Peace out! A photo to share before leaving.

2007-06-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

anyway this is me coming to blog..
the great hari!
anyway this few weeks have been really fun at skool!
getting to know PA11 betta.
somethings are really not what they seem.
well i cant upload the pictures...cuz i am currently not using my own phone and will find a way to do so soon...
this week i almost woke up late most of the time...due to the fact i have been sleeping late..at about 3.
common test starts soon and i am trying to do the best i can so that i can have something from my mum :)
i just hope everyone is able to do well for common test.i wish the whole class will do well..
and guess what its the month of june...
yeah yeah yeah ..june june june...and i realised there is someone born of the same day as me...so kool rite...first time..and in my class too...yeah yeah..
thats all folks....pls wait for the pics to be uploaded...

2007-05-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

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2007-05-17T05:55:00.000-07:00

This week has been hectic...with mentorin and ee society....hmmm...but here are some pictures to depict my week...:)

Peach ice cream!it looks like a peach rite?
Derrick studying....
syah sleeping...haha..poor guy...discovery channel is boring i guess?
haha....he just looks too funny!

The meal my family and i had for mother's day

Carrot cake at toh yi drive<3 Playing sudoku in class.....hmmmm...develops the iq? Sulaiha managed to complete! june..haha.

2007-04-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

guesss who?
too bored!

we were too bored during pc networkin..
we took another one...cuz june was doin "twice"
joshua copying homework near a dustbin
enlarged view...muahaha..he doesnt know...
june face can pay a million bucks for it!

yo...

back again to blog...

hmmm...it seems a certain few ppl miss hari's blogging ,anyway skool has started!..

i dun know whether that is a bad or good thing...

no more late nite marathon...

no more late nite phone talks...

no more late nite supper...

hmmm..

but on the good side...

i am occupied...24hrs...

i feel of some use...

and i am puttin the 2% of my brain into use....

anyhow life still goes on...

lets see last week...when me sulaiha and june first went into our tutorial class...

i still rmbr feeling scared....not used to new surrounding..

but one good thing is that since thier class went to vietnam wif june and sulaiha

i kinda of know them...

anyway the first time was quite okie...

they joke aand are easily amused...

anyway last week was also lolo bday...i rmbr goin out to buy his prez.....and in the end doin something i am not suppose to do.

we tried makin it fun for him.but unfortunately his bday falls on a weekend and we couldnt do much as lolo is too popular and has so many other plans...

anyway the next week..things were easier to get to cuz we knew where to go

and we knew what to do.and we were warming up to the class...

we learnt that the toh yi drive food court is our banquet...

we learnt that tutorials has it uses

we learnt that boys singing is amusing

and most important we learnt why ppl keep their hoods up...hahaha...

despite all these things i still miss my old class...been with them for one year..it was hard to part...

2007-04-15T01:15:00.000-07:00

just came back from camp on fri....
wow..it was tiring..but a fruitful experience..noticed alot of things..
but in the end all things ended well..
anyway yesterday was tamil new year..so couldnt sleep much also and had to wake up early
but yesterday the happiest thing was for the first time,my dad bought us all outfits...
first time he did that on his accord...
and it really touched all of us...
and unexectedly he was in a very good mood..
he was even making me take a video of the whole family in the car...
he wore the shirt i bought for his bday '________'<<<<<<<so touched!
anyway skool starts again tmr.really miss it...but this time we have more lectures..in lecture theatres...goin to miss pa12....but atleast we get to have lectures together and lunch too!my laptop is giving way too...aiyoh junior ...

2007-04-08T00:18:00.000-07:00

LOLo...the fastest...

jeric and mike...
me and sulaiha

dun ask me what they were trying to do....
another one....rock on!
Eugene....dun know also la

coming out from his mouth.

Time to BLog ...everytime i want to blog...this whole thing lags...aiyoh...

anyway this past week alot of things goin on....

from mon to wed...we had our class chalet...

fri i went for the ece meeting..but i couldnt go for camp...suz of my slight fever..

anyway i have found a new love....

haha...UVERWORLD!!!!!!they are awesome...fell for their song d-techolife first then others came on...

if i am nto mistaken...they are a jap rock group...

realaly awesome...i guess one of a kind.

P/S:bigmouths suck!

2007-03-31T21:05:00.001-07:00

i got my NEW PHONE!muahahahahaa
omg after like all my years alive..i have finally got a phone i like..
the LG CHOCOLATE(3G) !!!!!!!!yea!i am goin balistic!someone save me.....
since dun know when i have been obsessed with this phone...cuz its called chocalate!hahaha...lame reason but true!and i like the colour black!i was thinkin of the white one...but sure get dirtied easily so i tot about it and decided to get the black one!
this comin week is goin to be very busy...first thing first tmr..the class will be goin a chalet.i hope it turns out great!
then on the 5th i have the ece trial camp.
and on the 7,8,9 is the actual camp.
then on the 11-13 is the ee actual camp.
and on the sixteenth i start skool again.
goin into the new class.....mixed feelings!
anyway i have choosen my IS course options as psychology and management...heard psyvhology was difficult.

2007-03-31T21:05:00.000-07:00

2007-03-29T04:18:00.000-07:00

So addicted to BLEACH now!
haha...cant stand it..kun is so cute!
anyway just heard yesterday that we were changin classes...damn sad...
will miss pa12..
i dunno what to say!just hope everything ends well.

2007-03-23T21:44:00.000-07:00

MR BEAN HOLIDAY WAS HILARIOUS!WITH A CAPITAL H!!!!!!!!
that guy is really one of the best actors i know....he really can express himself without words and make everyone laugh.
yesterday i had alot of time thinkin about things..
my future goals..i only have one...
1)TO SEND MY MOTHER TO UNI!!!!!!!!!
becuz all my life...my mum has dedicated it to us...so much so..she does things...we want to do...all my mum wanted for her bday was for us to sit as a family and cut a cake.
i really want to be able to do the above task...maybe becuz my mum is the only one who kinda of believed in me...though she is protective at times...i guess no matter what..she will always be the hand and the comfort you will never let go off.

2007-03-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

today meeting was fun..
after such a long time..saw lolo ,eug,yj and june!
wow..eug and yj grew fatter...june well her hair is straighter..and she looks more mature.
as for sulaiha .she couldnt go with us today,as she had something on!
me and june are scheduled for the booth management in the morning on the 27th of march!in the morning..where else eug yj and lolo are at night.hmm..we cant attend trail camp..so we are having a special meeting just for us...wow..know the camp superidendant as its advantages..haha..thanks to lolo.
after that we were hungry and we decided to go eat..we ended up goin westmall..to eat..
then the guys said they wanted to watch a movie...the guys were more for patfinder...the gals were more for....stomp the yard..so in the end we didnt watch...we kept it for the next meeting..so the guys said that we the gals had to accompany them to the pool place to play pool...hmm...but we couldnt..and the gals got off the bus..and went home...the guys started shouting vulgarities..haha..
came home..and had along talk with mum..i have wronged in someways and words cannt just simply say sorry..i hope that he will get back the strength he once has..and now i know what my dad is trying to do!and i know why...but he canno protect me all along!i guess u have to leave in he hands of time..and wait and see!

2007-03-19T21:40:00.000-07:00

well,i have to meet GROUP 3 on fri.they want to eat dinner,but i am not sure if i am free
these few days have been pretty sick.
having a flu.
having a fever.aiyoh just a few days on my own and i am sick now.

2007-03-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

We are the champions!

Our group facilitor sleepin!#am in the mornin i think
We were bored!so he was the prop
HArd at work
Me and timothy
Prop moved to bed!

Y2Y camp was really fun!Here are some pictures!

2007-03-10T23:38:00.000-08:00

i cant believe i said those words to you
but whatever i said..sorry!
but i really feel its time to give up.
i dun wan to call u..in the fear that you will not pick up
Or there might be an arguement again.
and i wont pick up ur calls anymore.
everything u did hurt....it hurt so bad..
i will never forgive you for doing that to so many ppl
in other words...what i said last night maybe still applies
but i am not someone to say something so outwardly and blankly
SORRY SORRY SORRY
but please dun make me tell anyone what has been goin on in my life!

okie....smart ppl will be able to read that anyway
i just quit my job....it was too ....hmmm..betta not say here
i have recently tot of applying for SAT.
appa..says it will help for applying for overseas unis next time..
and yeah i think i wan to study more
the work experience has tot me alot
i guess my parents are cunning..they made me go to work to see...how it will be like..
but the experience was really fruitful..made a good fren..wanling...she is kool!
"the umbrella is wet how do i use it in the rain"
haha...try getting it.
and recently starting watching a new drama called...kimi wa petto..
petto means pet
kimi...means my
so basically its about my pet..but its not some.animal loving story.its about how a woman,saves a man lieing
on the streets and gives him a home making him her pet.
its quite hilarious and the best part is...makamostsu jun is acting in it...his remarkable performane in HYD has led me to like him and he is in a japanese band arashi.
he can dance modern ballet too..beat that.:)

2007-03-09T03:01:00.000-08:00

i hate u!
i hate u alot!
since sec 1....watever u did...hurt alot...
just becuz a teacher found my bloody walkman..u picked on me since then.
nothin has ever been enough.
guess...harivinaa gunnaasankaraan had enough!

2007-03-03T19:54:00.000-08:00

Why did u leave me?
SInce you left everything is bad?
i cried so much....cuz the memories of u are haunting me?
i guess u keep saying i pushed u away....i left u behind...but i think i you made me..
you kept saying thinss..you kept asking me questions..i hope one day i do meet you
and at that time is not too late anymore...!

anyway at home,there is a huge problem..i dont understand...why is everything so complicated
we are family ,but the problem grew so big..thank god i am goin to work!

2007-03-01T08:50:00.000-08:00

anyway i have joined CREATIVE now...as an event coordinator..

well nowadays ppl are goin goo goo gaa gaa over a new drama serial known as hana kimi..
ella is a different sort of artiste ...she has a tomboyish out goin style...anyway everyone says that guy wu chan is damn good lookin.....hmmm...the guy who acts as suiyi is jiro is it?they are supposedly from farenheit...
yeah anyway i kinda like that drama..but the anime is sort of nicer...but still they tried their best to capture every aspect and it is funny....

haha...is weird ppl becomin the kissing monster when they are drunk..haha...wow..okie!

2007-02-20T08:09:00.000-08:00

RADISH SALAD SUCKS!

you shred the radish until ur hands hurt ...
until ur fingertips turn pink...
until ur joints feel like it is goin to burn....
then you have to add the right amount of lime and then u just eat...
worse part is...it SUCKS...haaha
i did this with my aunt today..
had to wake up at 7.30 today..
go see a skool...
get shown around the whole skool...
with a student leader...whom i didnt understand what he was saying..
can u imagine lolo comes here..i think he will faint la..
haha...anyway the ppl are kool...
i had breakfast with them....ate all the swissrolls...haha
the uniform rocks...my socks...but i still dun like the environment...

anyway came home..and i missed the gang so much!i wan to go back!goin back soon...i am trying to go shopping tmr..

2007-02-15T21:22:00.000-08:00

yesterday night i couldnt sleep..i tried so hard and i couldnt sleep

and i rmbred a similiar place and time in which i had felt the same way too
i rmbr when i was doing m o's something had happened in the family
it affected me a lot and i went to sleep on the floor ....
i still rmbr being awake ...until damn late...

so i started thinkin about someone...
a certain person who would wake me up when i was four to buy me kaya toast..
a certain someone who would watch cartoons with me every sunday..
a certain someone who dressed me like a boy so that i could play with me
a certain someone who followed the bus so that he could keep on eye on me,on my first day of skool
a certain someone i just cried on...on my first day of skool
a certain someone...who got me a whole bag of barbie and other accessories for one of bdays
a certain someone who got me my first beckham jersey
a certain someone whom i think is the brightest in this world....
a certain someone who ppl might put down but i wont stand there and watch it.

i miss all this but most of all..i miss you...for just you.i am sorry if i did wrong...pls accept me...in one point of your life...cuz i love you appa!

2007-02-14T05:57:00.000-08:00

Havent Eaten !Stomach freakin Pain!

2007-02-13T01:05:00.000-08:00

My softtoys....
My workspace....cleaner..i think
My softoys in the cupboard......
Messy Clothes
My neighbours...house..that was where taji used to be..

Today i cleaned my room.And the toilet and i mopped the floor!!!!...and i was so bored..so i did it...tomorrow i will be working..relief teaching...i dunno how it is goin to be..mum is upset...hmmm:( i hope...she becomes okie...!!!!

2007-02-12T08:53:00.000-08:00

this is rain.....

RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!when will i ever get over him!!!!!!!!!!his sad tango is so kool!and i am watching a new drama about him..being a giglo sia...haha....its called sangdoo..he is going after a his childhood sweetheart!

2007-02-10T07:27:00.000-08:00

The bday cake.....blueberry......

The birthday boy..cutting the cake
After that it was back to studying for the guys!

Okie we just celebrated yj bday on friday!Photos from it!The maths exams was nuts....i did careless mistake..arghh...the last question was a guess...but one more paper to go and thats it...sayonara to year 1....but i hope our class doesnt split..someone told me..that year 2 class might split...

2007-02-06T02:05:00.000-08:00

lee joon ki...in my girl!

haha,...just came back from study group....eug and joshua.

talking about valentines day.

wow the guys really have different ideas about valentine's day.

anyway after that i got home...only to sit outside for freakin one hour!

hari forgot to bring the house key

actually i wanted to blog about something that happened in the media...

u see vasantham central has this dance show in which they expose young dance talents of singapore...

in this one particular show....a dance group brought out KUMAR...

the judge turned around to ask...is this showing ur weakness or strength i dun understand.

sometimes i dont understand singaporeans.you cant say much either.

2007-02-05T01:27:00.000-08:00

something u want to forget...
will keep coming back into your life....
in my life...
i have a met a few ppl ....
i never want to see again....
i know why i say that....
everytime,my life seems to get back on track ...they return
go away...go far away....i hate u guys!
i dont wan..my past..it sucks..it really throughly sucks....

COMPRO-BYE!

2007-02-02T07:59:00.000-08:00

Today school ended quite early..
So we stayed back in school to do compro..
Then we went to pizzahut..
ended up playign truth and dare there...
haha..it was fun..
then we played photo hunt..and monkey toss
at first i had a record toss...224.9
then eug came along and beat me....haha
then we saw that we are not the high score...so we were determined to beat the highscore ..cuz it was someone from ngee ann
some class
we wanted to put our class
and after four tries..we did it ..yeah!
yeah!aza aza fighting!
we didnt give up
eug and lolo wanted to play pool...they played ..while me and sulaiha slept there
later on we went home!
coming home...i watched this korean show starring HYUN BIN....it is called millionare's first love...damn touching!
no watching a korean drama attic cat...have to start studying tmr!these few days have just been compro compro...and its eatin me up..but u know what ...IT OVER!
no more programming....adious samigo!...but sad i kinda liked...becuz what goes around comes around..there is always a solutions...though you dun get it fast...you have steps towards it....just like maths and physics..maybe thats why engineering is still endurable!..haha:)

2007-01-25T08:06:00.000-08:00

Rain...with a weird hairstyle
Rain...In Full House
Rain...With the weird haristyle
Sexy Rain
He's looks kool here!

hey ...today something happen sia....

aiyah why do all these things have to happen...

why all the misunderstandings...

i wish people didnt have to be hurt...

i just wish somehw everybody will be happy...

pls..make it better...i dont wan ppl to be hurt...

Last Lesson

2007-01-23T05:22:00.000-08:00

Our iac teacher.....vivian tsang..she's kool!hs sleepin sia!
The gals!

today was the last lesson of IS.....Very sad sia...

But today aili stayed back with us sia

Quite funny..

I think we were freaking bored so maybe we just cracked up.....

We started arguing about how dum dum aili is...and yet she calls me dum dum ...its a wonder

me and june didnt go to watch our movie...

i had to stay in skool for the boys....

to teach them...

first was rino,then eugene,then last but not least a few questions from joshua.....

The revision paper was so much easier compared to the actual exam...

the last question for me was like three pages long...

aiyah i guess things are not that simple...

aiya....

and we only managed to finish the paper on time....

and i only came back at 8.45pm

aiyah why is everything so difficult sia....

anyway we took photos for our last day of iac.....taken from farhana.....

2007-01-22T07:39:00.000-08:00

this week is the last for alot of things...

for comtoolkit..

for eeps...

for all our pracs...

skool is ending....

this sem is ending...

its some sort our year 1 is over....

time passes so fast...

after this is year 2...

feel sad somehow...

alot of memories ...

sad and happy one...

Evryone gd luck for exams...aza aza fighting!

2007-01-20T20:11:00.000-08:00

LEE JOON KI!

2007-01-20T06:56:00.000-08:00

hey u guys who are fighting over who i like...i like BECKHAM!
haha...
okie anyway today is sat...
yeah stay at home day
but didnt exactly stay at home...went to eat fried chicken with the family at this restaurant..
just to eat fried chicken.
i actually slept until twelve today
haha....twelve first time heh
then came home at 4 slept until 7 ..wow damn tired la
then now i ahve started watching a new drama...Prince's First Love..its about this a gal stuck btwn a pair of siblings....who actually just have the same father.
its not bad..the guy who acted in it ..acted in my sasssy gal
okie anyway RAIN has his fourth album out..he shouldn't have cut his hair so short sia..haha
but anyway i like him!yeah!
okie..i have to go back watch my drama lo....
hey stupid akka ..stop readin my blog..dun worry you will get a good husband.. i cant wait to marry u off..and become an aunt..muahaha

2007-01-18T05:39:00.000-08:00

today chinese lesson again...
the teacher said my speech was good
next lesson...last lesson...haha
made a few frens..haha...the malays gals in front of us very funny...

today we had our eecad lesson
and it was okie i guess ..haha
first time 100% but it was out of the axis.
and no time to try again..fourth time i tried i still couldnt make it
and no more time...so i jus left it...cuz got to hand it in

then we didnt go for ael..cuz we were watchin the nra dance in np...today was np open house..the dance was okie...but the second part was kool..with tthe guys section starting of with a hand freeze.damn kool la...at first i was like talking to june..then i immediately went like wo...hahaha

2007-01-16T22:34:00.000-08:00

Sulaiha looks good!guys she is available....
jj and sulaiha look like couple
my class....haha...

2007-01-16T03:36:00.000-08:00

Today i saw siti sulaiha in a dress!
i think she looks elegant.
she was more soft today,its the dress!
must be the dress
okie their team was busy practising while me and aili were sleeping down there
i am so tired
had to do minutes last night and i had to do the project report and everything.damn taxing la
but now we have to do our survey again.
We did not understand what the question wanted and we didnt finish it properly
I have to thank aili for accompanying me
i will definitely miss my group sia
Its like evrything this sem was so kool and to think its goin to end soon
Time flies to fast
today farhana me and aili were cutting and pasting my words....and i tot to myself..i am glad i met them.in fact i am glad for meeting...everyone
they have all made a difference
why does is have to end :(
i am so sad.
i am feeling so sick now...i dont know why..cant eat properl nowadays...and now i am sick
aiyah..i dont know whats happeneing..maybe its the late nights sia
:)---but i will get betta cuz i am strong!haha

LOUSY>>:)

2007-01-12T22:36:00.000-08:00

Today i tried to sleep
aiyah..but first letchumi called me....then my mum called the house phone..
so i gave up
my mum hired someone to clean our house for one day
she is tellin us ..we suck at doin housework.
i totally agree with her
haha...
anyway i have started watchin a new korean drama...my girl..its damn funny
like a modern day anastacia...
i think its quite innovative..how they mixed everything..
i would love to know about asian cultures..they are all so rich
i rmbr how in sec skool...i used to love tamil literature...
even my tamil teacher was shocked..for a person who hates tamil..and finds it so ifficult to speak..and could do tamil literature..very welll

2007-01-11T05:06:00.000-08:00

okie..just came back from chinese class....
i like chinese class
i think somehow...the ppl in the class are able to relate to each other...
its different beign in the chinese class....
somehow...everybody..just laughs with each other...we make stupid jokes.
we play the mice and cat game.

work pile is getting more and more.
i just finished my ecpro...and comtoolkit..project
next tues..iac lo
haha.
i dont know...but wan all the project to be over..aiyah brain goin to burst liao
compro getting harder...have to understand..maths okie...but i need my specs...i cant see anything...so i cant do anything sia,
aiyah must buck up lo
hmmm...well things seem to be getting betta..thanks for accompanying me today.really appreciated it!

2007-01-10T02:14:00.000-08:00

Formal-formal
guess who?
formal-informal

haha...okie...yeterday we had our formal meeting..and this is how me and my grp looked...its abit too formal..haha.i think my grp is damn nice..they are all so nice ppl..aili and her bubbly self....farhana..would do antyhing...hafiz always so funny..and hongsoon..haha..my classmate.anyway we had alot of fun.

after that...did something..haha..a good deed..haha...i am proud of myself.

but i will never never ever wear my skirt again.

ALIVE

2007-01-06T20:12:00.000-08:00

my new love....haha..after beckham of course!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5VLpL-yzKuE

he is not good lookin though...but he can dance damn well la
and he is having a concert
haha...

i did okie for my exams but somehow i know its never enough for my dad.
i have made up my mind on where to go,or shall i say he made up my mind for me
whatever it is ...i still love my dad

anyway i stayed at home yesterday to take care of my mum...her health is worse...
i dont know what else i can do,hope she gets beta
havent talked to my halemoni in a long time..
i miss letchumi

my sis won a scholarship award...edusave scholarship..very proud of her..
hope she achieves her dream...atleast she gets to do what she wans.and i wan her to.
but she is choosing between accoutning and science now..
she and my elder sis are fightin over who can become a doc..
then my elder sis asked me "what if one piriya stole ur dream of becomin a lawyer?what will u do"
i said that i will be happy for her.haha
two lawyers are betta than one.and i will be happy if she really good at it..haha..she is my sis.

even though the whole picture is not happy...there are small parts to it..that keeps us alive and happy!

HUMAN

2007-01-01T19:53:00.000-08:00

aiyoh clumsy hari just fell.hahaha..i dont know what i was thinkin but i just fell hit the ironboard.worst part.there was a hot iron on top.haha.now whole arm hurts.i started laughin after that.anyway i dont know why but in an indian household...family politics make up a whole lot of it.policitcs...haha..whoever created that word...must haave been in one himself.hahaha..politicss...is something...to great to define..with just one sentence.anyway life has been hell boring..haha....family stay home practically evryday...only we know why..haha.

i think everyday is a step....just live for the moment...live like there is no tmr...someone once told me.and i think its so true..what is tmr?tmr is somethin no one can tell you.yeah there is astrology.but you tell me if an astrologer tells you..you are goin to become a doctor and u just sit there...do you think you will be one...its how you take your present that makes it youtmr...when i was young i used to feell..my tmr..past and future..is all my mum...becuz when you are young you have no aspriations..no desires...but now...i have an aspiration.my dad looks at me and asks...what do u wan to become..ppl laugh at me..whn someone says hari will be somebody.i dont know if i will be somebody.but i am trying to find out who i am .my dad fails to understand..all my life..i have been driven by what others say.yah i tell evryone to follow their heart..but what do i feel.i have been numb..numb from my own thinkin...that there are two sides to everything...when something happens...it is all not directed at one....there are factorss....so who am i?what are the factors?what are the outputs?but i know what i wan to achieve..nobody dies normal?everybody makes a difference to somebody.in a good way or bad.but it is how much that difference affected them.i have learnt alot from life.
i dun know if people have been honest but maybe everyone is trying to be human.

2007-01-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

new year resolution:
DUN TALK SO MUCH!
enjoy each day to its fullest.

why are things meant to happen?is it becuz the world is round..so whatever comes around goes around...KARMA?
i dont know...but why do all th bad things keep happenin to one.
esp to good ppl.
i dont understandd.and today was under depression mode..cuz i was thinkin ...what is am i comin too.
3 years ...okie i obtained an ausmat..then after that?is it really goin to be engineerin?i dont it to be though..law law oh my darling law..whn can i cme to you.haha.

today i realised what i wan to do wif my life
i wan to run a part time busineess by the time i am 21...waiting for my sem to finish
have to read up on how to write a proposal.
then do law..make sure ...i get a phd in it.
go to africa...get justice for the ppl there..and then i will feel accomplished.i think i will feel accomplished..if everyday i learn something new..something to breathe for.

MERRY CHRISTMAS....HOHOHO!

2006-12-24T06:24:00.000-08:00

today spent the whole day doin housework...mopping...folding of clothes..becuz a few guests were coming over.they are our long lost relatives from penang..long story..the day before my mum went shopping to get evry single one of them a guests.
yesterday we even went to church ..to watch this musical.i dont know but i think its difficult to ask ppl to trust god,when ppl cant even trust each other..god is omnipresent..we have to believe in him....but ppl cant...cuz to tell you the truth people have been down too much.they have been hurt too much and they cant seem to pick themselves up.After the musical at the church,i thought alot about things...people..firstly cannot expect ppl to be there for them...when they themselves dont reach out for anyone..my aunt once told me...life is like a wheel..a wheelll...that revolves back to you.so whatever you do...affects you.
complex thoughts...ahaha

2006-12-22T01:11:00.000-08:00

okie carrying on from yesterday...the class outing ..hmm..lets see...the guys were stupid..there were crocdiless....fishes..and starfishes...hmm..but it was fun and worth it.i hope eugene liked his cake.but june wasnt there...alot of our class guys werent there too..only seven of us went..haha...
and yesterday i went for the formal event .....the dance segment was the coolest...there were so many kinds of genres...but i cldnt dance.anyway i saw this thrio dancin.soul sistas or somethin...

then today went to help out my parent movin things..he is movin hahaha....ubi here we come!

2006-12-20T23:20:00.000-08:00

okie holidays are here..yesterday had a class outing...haha..okie 7 ppl turned up.it didnt rain!so we all went to the beach..yesterday was eugene bday too!so we all just celebrated his bday...
i gtg for some formal dinner in my mum;s skool ...will be back to blog.

AMBITION

2006-12-07T03:35:00.000-08:00

when i look at myself what do i see?i tot about it today.i dont have any hidden talents.from what i know...nothin.anyway nothin special.i dun know what i want to become.i know what i wan to become but i really dont know how to get there.haha.i want to be a ......LAWYER.but how do i get there.shall i go take foundation then take a degree in law?i wonder....ppl ask me time and time again ....why law?justice...is the ans...justice...can u define justice....try defining it.U CANT.firstly cuz it a word created by man.the law is created by man.it is made by man.and all that.I WAN TO HAVE A SAY.haha.i want to make difference.ENGINEERING is really kool....cars and circuits and all that.BUT i love language and theory...i dun love practicals and hand ons....hmmm...but it quite hard to say this to ppl...whom feel you have to prove urself.
common test are coming....i want to do weell this time...for LETCHUMI.i dont know why but i miss her loads.she always calls me and says you dont miss me?and i say alot..haha...i miss u alot...and i really do.i miss her nagging..she snoring beside me....she shouting at me and talkin to me esp when i am studying cuz she bored.i miss her feediin me.now i have eat by myself.haha.i just miss her so much.i think if my grandma wasnt around now i would have gone to do things...i have never imagined.

why?!does this have to keep happenin.

2006-11-11T07:50:00.000-08:00

i dont know whats wrong with them.whats the point of arguin.doesnt he and she understand that the ppl being affected is actually us.she was so lookin forward to goin out and eating and then this.thinkin about it,just makes me think why cant ppl just forget and forgive.

2006-11-03T18:58:00.000-08:00

complicated world you live in.sometimes you look around you and you dont understand whats goin on.
Today early morning has to wake up to my mother screaming and shoutin.sometimes i would pay anything to have my childhood pay.i didnt have much frens but i had my mother and my father.but now things are too complicated to have anything.
at skool,i dont understand whats goin on?how to make it betta?
I havent talked to you for four days.Dun know what to say.
so basically u just sit here waitin for something good to happen in ur life.when will that happen?

2006-10-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

i dont knw what i am doin with my life.work until one in the mornin then..school then work again.wow practically only five hours of sleep evryday.i feel so bad i didnt go out with xm and wendy ,had project and my dad decided to pick me up.i am really sorry.well back to school for me!omg in a way i love skool,the class is getting closer.which is pretty kool!this semester i am taking analogue electronics,engineerin mathematics,computer programming,eecad and the is modules.what i like the most will be programming.its like maths...there will always be a solution.its like breaking a code.hey maybe engineering might turn out to be a love after all.but what i love most is the ppl in my class,they make it a joy goin to skool.everypart of it.

i called xuemin!private number.hahaha

2006-09-28T01:15:00.000-07:00

hey xm i tried calling u a few times.i know you said u wanted to go out.i even called yahui.the thing is i am still sick.public apology sorry.just tell me when u want go out again.call me.
anyway these few days working for my dad company.building it up i guess again.miss school.i rmbr once my uncle told me the best place to discover urself is in school.i really think so.in crescent i discovered so much.in ngee ann i discover more.sitting at home sometimes lets your mind wonder.so maybe working is quite kool too.made quite few good ppl there.they are different.very mature...when i talk to them about cartoons..or anime they go"HUH?u watch those stuff"..when they ask me to clubbing i go "HUH?"....hahaha...but still we still have things to talk about.
and i realised something....everybody is different inside and outside.someppl dont show their inner weaker self....someppl try not to show...and some ppl dont know hoe to show.but to all these catergories you will definitely have someone to shake them up.someone to open them up.either a fren...a lover....or family.but watever it is ppl have feelings...feelings..that occur in different ways.and might be difficult to control .although they say its a man eat man world.its also a MAN LOVE MAN WORLD.

2006-09-23T19:51:00.000-07:00

my hands are shaking as i am writing this.having a bloody fever and cold.i dont want to go see a doctor...there is no use i am always sick anyway.these past two days have been walkin in and out of hopsitals.gleaneagles and nuh.hahaha.i think i should become a doctor....okie quite impossible.

i am sorry for blamin you for all the things i didnt do.

2006-09-22T02:26:00.000-07:00

i respect u...and i want the best for you.i just want you alive.i hope u understand.alot of things have been goin on with my life.i dont understand why is it my family always has so many problems.but i have to be strong at least for my mum and my grandma.only today evrybody got quite good news.i hope this continues.
was quite touched by sis today...actually by somethingshe said....we went to the wet market to get something...and she saw a lizard there...she hates lizards becuz she thinks they are slimy and disgusting .and then she said i am never coming to a market.....and then i told her she cant always be scared.and then she said "no i am not,cuz you are there to fight it away".i didnt say anything.i didnt know she had such trust in me....truly appreciate it though.

2006-09-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

omg!today had two blows in one go.I AM SORRY.was a word i heard so many times.its not ur fault.i am so troubled by all these.i feel confused and lost.i dont understand why i feel why i feel this way.i look at life and think doesnt everybody have to die one day.then why doesnst everyone understand that they have to enjoy every single min of their life.life is gift,a gift given by god.forgive and forget .let bygones be bygones.why do u think ppl said these wise words,for us to be able to look at life in a brighter life.
a reflection of my life:
every step in my life,there has been ups and downs.my childhood was like any other childhood.when i was three i still rmbr sunday mornin...how my dad brought me to eat kaya toast at thomson.then we used to watch cartoon.yes my dad used to watch cartoons.then when i went to nursey i rmbr how i used to sleep during my lessons.how i was forced to learn chinese.no offence but i had to change it to han yu pin ying or something.then i made it to primary school.in a way i did not primary school.dont ask me why but i guess ppl were young and did not watch their tongues.i met friends but u know what u were childish then and it was hard to see through characters.but durin these times there was one person who stayed true,my mum.she stayed as my best fren ,my confidante and my supporter.but this was not to last when i went to sec skool,esp in sec 1...starting having a greater amount of frens as normal.even when i was home...i only tot about goin out with my frens.i dun know whose fault this was.the disappointment in me...or my dad disappointment in me that drove me to the end.then when in sec3 or 4 ,somethign unbelievable happened to my family.unbelievable as in ...in a bad way.i changed i started studying last 2 mths before my o's i studied.i made it .got a freakin 16 points for LIR4.then i went to st francis...it was weird..and now i am here...no regrets...met great ppl.really great ppl.eug and his stupid ways..june the ever laughin apple chips selling gals....and siti the ever so blur fren who wants to slap everybody.and yj and lolo well the are the two idiots.the whole class is kool!i miss them

i just hope..u are safe.

MEMORIES

2006-09-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

today i pasked my clothes.keepin all my jackets.i cant believe this happening.as i grouped evrythin i found alot of memories.i rmbr the MOBIL shirt my dad gave me.he just gave me out of the blue.although it is free ...its a racing shirt and it meant alot.havent seen my dad in a long time.cant wait to meet him though.miss him like crazy.then i found my st francis uniform. i am not sure of whther that is a good thing or bad thing.somehow the memories from the school are enough to kill.but i met cool ppl like azimah.angeline and denise.i found the sweater wendy gave me with a ducky in front.i rmbr how she said give it back to me and look its still with me.i guess i will keep it until she asks it back.then i found the spiderman shirt i got when i went to US.i did not know simple things hold so much memories.

LEAVE ME ALONE

2006-09-18T03:17:00.001-07:00

please leave me alone.i am so traumatised.
today i was suppose to go to school..was in my uncle's house.but my grandma told me (if you cme to my house you will get roti prata) so i took a cab down to my grandma house.hahaha...i am a glutton what do u expect.i am so tired.i dont know why.maybe those late nights inuyasha watching.i only sleep at three and four.
later went to my docs to get the pills.i was so angry with her.i asked her for a receipt under my mums name.she gave me this are u stupid look .i was so pissed.come on la...i was just asking.you can answer me nicely rite.
doc:its illegal u know?moh will come after u, u know?
me:i know i know!but my mum can redem thats why?
doc:i cannot.its illegal.its illegal...and she kept repeating it
me:ASS
but i dont think she heard me saying ass..i know its illeagl but think of it logical,its not like we pay for our own medical expenses....atleast i dont...so why not my mum redeem for me..but the reason why i am angry is becuz she doesnt have to be so rude.but i am okie now.hahaha.i dont stay angry for long.hahaha.

LEAVE ME ALONE

2006-09-18T03:17:00.000-07:00

2006-09-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

Aiyah...why is so difficult at times.one thing i cant understand why is life so hard.i hope my sis accomplishes what she wants,i love her beyond words.i rmbr the times when we were young.we were inseperable.i couldnt sleep without her.couldnt eat without her.when she came to live with us.i was more than happy.then she went to aus?i was so upset.i want her to be happy.i really do.i have everythin.she doesnt have so much.i want to her have everything.
today stayed home.did housework.mum has inflammation of bones .trying my best to help her in every way possible.that includes screamin my top at her when she takes the broom.
did housework until quite late 5.then took a bathe .set off to grandma hse.atthe bus stop..saw an ass at the bus stop.had to talk to him.then when i went to my grandma hse i had chicken curry.YEAH!love my grandma cooking and today she told me something.you betta follow me wherever i go.i will die without you and piriya.i was so touched.i love
my grandma.i will follow you.wherever you go.I LOVE YOU DA!

2006-09-15T04:32:00.000-07:00

GOIN AUS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to get some things done....waitin for tickets to get confirm.maybe could shop more.i dont know see first.i will definitely tell uguys if i go okie.
anyway today i went my grandma's house again.to eat lunch.grandma was quite upset due to unforeseen circumstances.i had to go to the market to purchase things for her instead.i am upset.i dont know why?why am i upset?
JUNE AND SITI take care.dont stress urself too much.drink lots of water.and try to eat fruits.

2006-09-14T02:09:00.000-07:00

conflicts...the worst sort are relationship conflicts..they can hurt someone so bad...either both party or one party.recently one of my dear frens is goin through such a storm.i just wish her luck.hey raken...thank care ass.
anyway nuh has like become a second home for me.went there for certain things.haha.anyway i got scolding from mum today for being late.but i was buying canberry juice for her thats why i was late.hmph.haha.
anyway i just found out my grandma was something like me when i was young .a braver version though.she went to steal money from her father..to go an eat.she used to eat almost 7 times a day.but the amazing part is she was not fat.she said whenever she used to get angry when she was young she used to beat up ppl.haha.she even beat this guy becuz he pushed my grandpa over.and she beat a guy becuz he came to beat her father...haha.wow!my grandma rocks!but when it comes to us...she doesnt dare lay a finger....LOVE CONQUERS ALL!
my sis is buying an xbox 360 soon.cant wait for it.hahaha...i am goin to come home immediatly afer skool from next term onwards to play xbox 360.
will be missing sulaiha and june...they are goin vietnam.i wish they didnt have to go.i hope they have a good time though.sulaiha dont slap any kids who irritate you okie?and june dont promote applechips there.

FAMILY CONFLICTS

2006-09-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

why does it exist?ego?or just plain stubborness.i dun know.but all this is eating my grandma.my grandmother she is a beautiful woman. she doesnt have anything at heart.she wants her whole family to be united.i love my grandma.when everyone gives up on me she is the only one who lifts me up.she gives me wings to fly.u can say.after last year incident.she was the only on telling ppl not to hit me...or scold me.to her we will always be little and forever hers.life has been cruel to her.she lost her husband and now her kids are doin this.now that i am not in her house anymore.i miss her to bits.i miss her nagging.i miss her tellin me random stories about herself.i miss the way she held my hand in the nights justto make sure i dont run away.if there is one thing i dont want to lose in this world it is my grandma.she is someone so special even god cant replace her.

2006-09-12T04:09:00.000-07:00

dad said something like i have to stay with him wherever he goes.its not fair why does he always do this to me.first he doesnt wan me to do business.saying i will be cheated.my mum thinks i am not hurt.my dad is nice .but sometimes why doesnt he just let me do things i wan.he says my younger sis can go anywhere but i have to follow him.why do i have to follow him?hmph. dad pls listen to me.i wan to continue.then maybe i will go there to do law.i really wan to do this.

WADE ROBSON

2006-09-11T23:46:00.000-07:00

went to nuh today.got xrays done.hope its good.haha.
i love my mum.she is just everything to me.someone made me realise her impt.she changed me into who i am today.she is totally a angel.ppl say that since god cant be around all the time he has mothers.and i think its so true.she is protective,i dont deny that but i think its becuz she wants to make sure i dont get into any shit.and having her around in everything just makes me feel protected.just like today.
so after nuh.i headed home to play drome racers.really cool game.love playing it.sis introduced it to me.watched inyuasha too.again.nothin much done today.tmr mite be goin to meet sulaiha for lunch.i miss seeing them.
and wade robson is coming to singapore.the overdrive hip hop competition.i am definitely goin.

BACK!

2006-09-11T03:00:00.000-07:00

i am back.so good to be back.i am missing chicken rice and mee goreng.in aus all we ever ate was spagethi..chicken kebab.and more spagethi.but i miss irene.she was my bball mate.she is really cool.she knoes how to do layups to perfectly.and she dances freestyle.anyway the one and half weeks there became quite close to her.she is different.haha.
anyway first things first.i got all of the stuff.evrythin for everybody.felt like santa claus.thanks to the the two powerpuffs and the three dumbers esp the head..dumb aka eugene aka ass.
i went to my grandma hse to taste home cooked food again.hmm...taste good.haha.sambal chicken.
anyway under alot of medication.doctor says mite have stones in the stomach.she said she would do a checkup after i take the medicines.so i am hopin for the best.i am takin two antibiotics.i hate medicines.i always have a hard time swallowing them.i wan to choke and die.

MARIMAE dady yankee

2006-09-10T05:33:00.000-07:00

anyway accompanied my sis and her fren to this talk about motivation.and the guy started motivating us i think.he even said marriage need motivational.he asked this lady what is a marriage and she said just makin babies.i laughed my heads off.anyway i finally found timtams.hahaha.muahaha.i am so happie.after so long.anyyway beginnin to like people here.talked to xuemin last nite.felt abit betta.played badminton.haha.badminton in australia.someone is angry reading my blog.i guess i got nothin to say.but sometimes i feel u did nothin for me.i just wan to open up.but i cant.youre just too sensitive.i am happy its all over between us.u hate arguin with you.dont come back,and i will never turn back,

goin to eat timtam.

MISSIN U GUYS

2006-09-09T07:01:00.000-07:00

lookin out the window all i can see ppl in black coats walking around.they are all so sad and unhappy.noone is lookin forward to life.missing the hotlisters like crazy.i want to see them.missin my poly friends too.when i sit here alone thinkin about what is happening around me,all i can do is cry inside and smile outside .i have to be strong for my mum.i hope my mum feels betta.i worry for her.she is often sick.when i tot is was over for me,my mum was here.she lifted me up.i never knew i could be back here.but u know what i am scared of that bitch comes back again.i dun wan her to come back.the hotlisters deserve a special thanks too.when all the excitement was happening they were there....lookin upon me...worrying when they couldnt get me.

WENDY:no words to describe this special angel.she is so funny and never fails to make u laugh.she never fails to tell me she loves and that she misses me.she is ngee ann but i hardly get to meet her due to the hectic workload.i rmbr in sec 4 .she killed a bee and performed a burial for it.and she made me attend it.how we used to go thomson plaza.how she is always treating me so i will go out with her.haha.

XUEMIN:mint....my little mint.i have never forgotten the smile u gave me that day when u asked me why i never say bye to you.i rmbr how we sat in reap together.i rmbr how we used to skip mass run when we got caught by linda goon for one attempt.and we ran punishment together.i did not know my mint was so strong.leading me on and encouragin me not to think about a bitch.

YAHUI:i still rmbr you .of cous how to forget yahui.an ass always waiting to trip me.an ass lookin to bully.how she used to share korean dramas with me.how she used to intro korean artiste to me.she was always doin art and i always TRIED MISERABLY TO HELP HER.

LIYUN:my goin home partner.my studying partner.amths.not only lucy tan chased me..u chased me too.thanks lal that paid off.i totally love you.you are confused at times but basically u are there.always waitin for me.waitin for me to talk and goout.i miss you .i miss how i used to see you everyday.

SALLY:hey the one i used to argue about you know who.i love you.i miss arguin to you.how u used to insist sharing a seat with me .haha...how you and wendy used to rape me.i cna still rmbr.haha.

YAS:the political person who sits bsides me and is always neutral.

I LOVE YOU GUYS AND MISS YOU GUYS>
I MISS MY TWO GIRLFRIENDS AND THE THREE DUMBERERS TOO>

THE HOTLISTERS

2006-09-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

to the hotlisters:i know you guys are hurt and surprised as to why i am aus.i can explain later.i am sorry i didnt tell you all earlier.i keep letting u guys down.at first i let u guys down becuz of a bitch named rei.and now i let u down again.poly life is tiring.i am sorry .i hadnt time to meet u guys.my darling mint i wasnt even dare for ur bdae.i am so sorry.i had exams then and i hadnt completed what i was suppose to study.i hope you are not mad.i am sorry i always say i will come..in the end i dun make it.sometime i feel i am not worthy of u guys,you guys are truly amzing.only u guys know me truly.u guys know what i have been through in my life.i want u guys to know .you mean the world to me.i am not very good with words and showing of affection but this is my public decleratin.I LOVE THE HOTLISTERS:XM YAHUI WENDY LIYUN SALLY YASMEEN
i will come back and explain everything!

2006-09-02T05:03:00.000-07:00

in a world full of ppl you feel so alone.unable to tell anyone.all the mistakes of my past keep huntin me.it is my fault i cared too much?my family keeps repeating.i hate it when my mum chases me to my grandma hse...since sec 2 everytime i did somthin bad.she will send me there.i dont know if she realises it.all these years somehow something was missing but what?i dont know what?
and now..i dont know .here in aus alone..i missmy frens.i dont know what to do.sometimes i sit and i think.where did i go wrong?

2006-07-29T07:57:00.000-07:00

hahaha...life so fickle...you dun knw when will go.haha...skool is fun...i think...engmec..i dream about engmec nowadays..but i need those marks.haha...three ppl know why.anyway i have been staying in skool until damn late..havent been talkint o my mum much.june keeps taking photo of me...idiot...look at her blog la..i feel like puttin her on the chopping board and whacking the hell out of her....she is so stupid.she tells me i am in the gang of cleaners.and sulaiha keeps making lame jokes with her too.

things have changed without you.i did not know that the choice u made was becuz of me.u told me many a times.i affected you.it was not him but me.i did not understand,but when i did it was too late.how am i goin to face life.but i promise you one thing i willl never call another the same i addressed you.i miss you.i realy do.i called ur number the other day.just to hear a dialtone.the subscriber is no longer available.hmm...you are no longer available?i wonder where you are...i cant see you.i guessed you passed .i hope you are happy.but rmbr a soul here lives and yearns to see you someday.i miss you.

2006-07-16T19:50:00.000-07:00

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2006-07-15T05:52:00.000-07:00

today saw vanessa in the bus....she saw me and was like...you havent changed....and i was talking to her...i realised ilost touch of alot of things...crescent gals...i wonder where are all the other bballers....suhanthi...huimin all missin...not bothered to find them also...deleted their contacts in my last friendster account....missin in action so many times i think suhanthin gave up looking for me...really miss them....i hate seein st francis ppl though ...painful memory though when i was with them...i was so changed....i hate what happened to me....losing my bestfren to a guy ..how she made use of me....how she got jealous went i went with others...all the nights arguin...she didnt leave me alone....i just moved away but she continued chasing me....i dun understand...made me cry.i died everyday ,...i rmbr offing my phone in the nites...just to find so many msgs the next mornin...she telling me she has been crying the whole night and i wasnt there for her...ur memories are painful.i dun understand what u wanted from me.
when i was quiet she wanted to be noisy...when i was noisy she wanted me to be quiet and she did not let anyone else know me...or talk to me?still dun understand why?
anyway today was fun...prize presentation...haha....the director didnt know we were the winners ..the first runner up looked more like winners i think ...we were so puny...

have tousand and one tutorials to do...

2006-07-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

this week has been really complicating...all the quarrels...misjudgements...and assumptions..but it is all over and i am more than happy,
today june and sulaiha were back to their usual ways of teasin and laughin at their own lame jokes....those two..haha

yj ,eug and lolo are just the same...they were makin fun of june today becuz she publicly announced she took public baths until pri 4...haha...its embarassing...but june feels its okie...she and her mushroom head.

in class she was sewing her joseph bag...becuz it was tearing..and she pricked her hand.we stayed in skool until 8...'doin'engmec tutorials...we viewed 'pretty' gals on friendster......and then we went home....took 154 then changed to 174....just like the old times....

2006-07-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

Italy first goal.....

ZIDANE beign hugged!

1stt min injury
captains

zidane being aggresive
stupid elizondo
sulaiha wants me to say this....ITALY FUCKING WON THE WORLD CUP BECUZ THEY WERE SO AGGRESSIVE AND RIDICULOUS>>2 TO 3 DEFENDERS PER ATTACKER LA>AND THERE WAS A SUCKY REFREE CALLED ELIZONDO

2006-06-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

school is getting interesting.i dont know exactly whats going on but i hope it will be better.i wan everythin to be back to normal.anyway sulaiha and june make the cutest pair.doin stupid things constantly.sulaiha we know who likes you...:}june is just june...like today when sulaiha told us that in the muslim bible also known as the koran if u complete walking on a thin rope only can u go heaven...june immediately said so ppl working in the circus can do it very well .june just makes everyone laugh.they started drawing each other with invisible ink...which was funny too...and sulaiha goes around spitting pearls in drainss....poor bf:}.anyway did ok for my subjectx.

cant wait for superman in omni theatre....

2006-06-12T19:11:00.000-07:00

i dununderstand why u feel by just cooking for me everyday you ae doing everything u can.have u ever thought for once....it makes no difference.u did not even come home and tell me u missed me.u called ur other two comrades.i dun understand what is ur problem.u are always nagging..tellin how i am not doin anything...what is wrong with watching anime....ur other comrade watches another anime...its the only thing that makes me forget where i am .

anyway went out with my mama.....she bought me a shirt...and a ipod cover and ad shoe...i love my mama!she is only thing that is keeping me goin.....

my aunty bought me an england t-shirt.....

2006-05-29T07:53:00.000-07:00

Cars YEAH! i like the turbo design of the front wheel.........

2006-05-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

argued with my mum today....she thinks i am testing her bloody love...where got this kinda of crap..i dun understand.does she know what i am goin through..i cried like shit in the morning.i did not know who to tell it to...why is it such a struggle for me.

2006-05-28T06:08:00.000-07:00

i think about you every freaking moment.you were more to me than anything.i looked up to you.respected you.i stilldo.i want to get out.all the yelling and screaming is driving me mad.
i miss u so much.i am stuck with words in my mouth.unable to tell anyone how i feel.
i want to express myself but to whom.no one has freakin time.i wish time turned back.i dun know how things happen so fast.things are so unpredictable.things change so fast.looked like i just fisin psle...but look where life brought me.i can still rmbr u bringing me to get my results.how u were so disappointed.i dun know whatmore to say?i tried walking away.but i cant .everymoment is a painful reminder.....how i wished time could pass faster...i dun wan my bdae to come...to remind me of you
......i love you ........i love you,my tourniquet

2006-05-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

ee ppl are kool!haha....

2006-05-21T04:13:00.000-07:00

i hate my past....why is everyone toturing me.everyone somehow a rather does it....so i have decided something my past will ruin my life.i hate it!i really hate it.forget it i just want to do well get out of here.i really dun wan this anymore.all the stupid comments.i hate coming home.i hate facing people..but on the other hand i got no where to go.i am so pathetic.forget it!i cant wait for all this to get better...than just go about my life...and tell everyone they have no rites in my life.i hate all of you!JUST GET LOST!EVRYONE OF YOU!

2006-05-18T07:55:00.000-07:00

hey everybody can u guys pls help my fren....she is sellingg CANON PRINTERS....and has been getting alot of scolding from her boss....i would like u guys to help her......if anyone interested to buy tag me....and help me pass around the msg

2006-05-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

stop it all of you!
i dun believe you all can go through just for one day!
i dunhave anybody to cry to!
if u wan to leave ...just leave...dun hurt me...u guys have no right k?
no one listens....everybody thinks i suck...guess wat i do...i really do...

so get lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!JUST GO!

2006-05-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

i am damn weak....i dun wan to do this anymore.....i dun wan to be the reason why ....

2006-05-14T03:01:00.000-07:00

i hurt my grandma....how?
why do i hurt everybody.

2006-05-10T05:20:00.000-07:00

who does this faint heart cry to?
i am not me anymore?
doesnt my m realise me she is killing me with her overprotectiveness
i hate her.....
i want to live alone....i am very weak
i want to tell someone
cry on their shoulder
show them whats inside me
i am complicated....very complicated
i am not the same....forced to be mature
shown to the world as a culprit....capable of everythin shit
my m hates me.....i am up to no good...no one likes talkin to me...wats the point of being alive
what is the point of goin through everyday looking for hope...when no one gives u hope

2006-01-19T03:41:00.000-08:00

okie...this is goin to be a long entry...
at the current moment i have left my fate until april
everything lies until then...
alot of question linger in my head
i feel theres absolutely no use in holdin on anymore
i feel i have lost everythin
my frens have to move on with their life
my family doesnt like them me anymore
someone is upsettin me
i dun want to lose everyone...okie i am just confused
sitting in my grandma hse everyday i think about life

2005-11-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul to you
right from the start....

i love you....actually reliefed in a way they know about it....hahaha...yeah!

2005-10-30T02:31:00.000-08:00

u..?are u the one?
i really want to walk with u.
ur flaws are a million.
ppl tell me...
her?why her?
but i never questioned u.
but why do you?
which side of me do you want to see?
you give me no choice...to me simple things are enough
i dun need you to be somebody you are not
stop saying i can choose someone betta....
no one in my heart is comparable to you
they are impt...when you truned ur back on me....when the world turned their back on me....she was there ....they were there...
they come with me...
you are with me
when i am with you....i am the person i always wanted to be.....
pls dun give up...i am not giving up...
i will wait ....okie?
i will not lose hope...
u mite be hypocritical now...but i saw something in you ..and that something i dun wanna let go off.....!

2005-10-23T21:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday i was damn pissed.....felt like slappin u!nvm forget it!??????????????
maths paper was okie....it was mangable.....

2005-10-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

lifes a mess now....family....and everything.
ppl pressurizing me...everywhere...and during a time like this all i want is a hand to hold...an angel peharps?
why is it despite everything u hae done to me,i still hold on as if,someting is holding me back.verysoon i can tell you nothing will hold me back.slowly u are slippin...and i am letting....looking and talkin to you has become a chore.i hate you! anaku unai pidavilai...ni yan an ulagirku vandai!aiyoh!

2005-10-07T02:26:00.000-07:00

its the hardest thing i will ever have to to turn around and walk away pretending i dun love you?

2005-10-02T08:28:00.000-07:00

i want to spend my lifetime loving you.....that is all in life i will ever do!

do all of u understand the hotlisters ,azzymah...denise...angeline.

all of u special in ur own way.....each of you holding ur own gift......somehow lifting me..i love u all!

2005-10-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

last day....

2005-10-01T21:53:00.000-07:00

save tonite...i'll fight the break of dawn..come tomorrow...tomorrow i will be gone!

2005-09-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

hey ....u guys dont need to feel so bad.i will not leave for good.i will be back...i sound like the terminator...anyway everthing u guys did i will not forget.....in my darkest hours last year u guys came to my rescue...each individual special in her own way...bringin something noone else had....my little mint....my terrorisin yahui...the three sex gurus...rock butt liyun.....running to see karen andrea....and lastly my best fren jingwen..u ppl made a big diff...the urge to come to skool..rmbr those times when we used to eat recess together .those simple times left a lasting impression.so i love u guys?

2005-09-24T05:31:00.000-07:00

i will try to forget u ..
i will try to forget u..
i will try to forget u ..

today was quite kool.someone irritated me early in the morning...by asking me to run a chore...but she still doesnt understand why i am pissed.couldnt meet ming and wendy becuz had to celebrate chloe bdae...

yah anyway we all ate at marche,...when all of us gobbled up diff things.kalamari,.....waffle....yah that was what i gobbled up....then we went to watch this police roadshow...it was damn funny...becuz at first chloe wanted to go up on stage but all of us didnt....so when the guy asked who wants to go up...i sabotaged chloe....chloe said i was the first one to sabotage her....okie?
then the guy said three of ur frens have to help u with this...karen and i immediately got hold of each other and started running out of heeren....hahahahhahahahahaha...it was damn funny!the dogs at the roadshow were very cute...there was a labarador...a cockiel spaniel.yah!
then went to karen hse to watch sleepin beauty...i couldnt watch the whle thin.

i will really really tried to forget u

i tok ur hand and led u i walked behind u...slowly watching ur each step.....but now u are goin too fast so i cant keep up...i am letting u go....i will try to forget u !

2005-09-23T09:39:00.000-07:00

okie i shall blog the genting trip....hahaha.....becuz its very memorable.

the rides were so cool.the longdrop....the spiderman ride....all the rollercoaster rides.
and everything.the best part is sitting wif ur frens on the rides.esp....wendy:)

anyway the marybrown food.who can forget?the fried chicken...the ayam chicken...omg!i am hungry.i am always hungry at nites...

sleeping in the nites...in a big bed...my bed is so small

goin crazy wif rei in the nite,,....makin her kowtow.hahaha

all these stuff i miss .....i love genting....i love wendy....i love rei.....i love liyun.

2005-09-21T02:35:00.000-07:00

LIARS!FAKERS!....even you whom i trusted so much is failing to tell me alot of things...u say u thought u told me...i hope so.

today did not go skool!what is the purpose of skool when the teachers itself are not serious.they come and go...they teach us what they think is necessary.But the ppl i met there cannt be replaced.Azzymah,angeline and denise.the three pandis.you know what u guys rock!

2005-09-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

hahaha...am i a seventeen year old kid?

i am beginning to feel ppl are pyshing me to grow up.but i have no one else to blame for this except myself.i dun wan to!i really dun wan to!
how i wished i could turn back time,to the time that my dad was around.he used to protect me.maybe if he was around i wouldnt have gotten myself so deep.

just one day as a normal teenager...everywhere i go i have to worry about things i shouldnt be even thinkin about...no one knows!hahaha

anyway today was quite stupid with andrea uncle and everything...he asks so much questions...but doesnt have a ans for it himself....wat the hell rite?anyway half the time he stood dumbfounded to watever i said to him....hahah...yeah!

rei bought me two bottles of nutella.....hm!!!!!!so u know wat i will be doin today nite?thanks rei?
*actually i was just jokin

talkin about her...i am not so affected by her anymore...she has her reasons...i dun wanna get angry...yah?

anyway did i tell anyone i bought my silver beckham shoes!its damn kool!bu i concluded u should only wear it when u are wearing jeans...because its contrast to my leg colour....hahhahahahahahhaha...okie this is damn funny

happie bdae to denise!
had to rush all the way down to westmall to buy her a cake..
we tried go
in to the haunted hse....wolfy was scared...dont blame the dog...hello?!the place is really haunted....ask me and i shall tell you the story of that place?

hahaha.....anyway why is it so hard to tell someone you love...you love them

hahaha....I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-14T10:20:00.000-07:00

choolates and sweet my foot!

anyway i dun understand you anymore.and you are sick of me...i try to tell u things....but u are sick of hearing them,sometimes....i repeat whyi cling on i dunno......u irritate me.....u just wanna look at me....for wat?watch you from a dist.what you did that day hurt okay ?if i were to make a choice....i wouldnt be as fickle as you .i wish i could tell all this to someone......just anyne....no one knows why i am feelin this way.becuz they dun know our story .if only a single soul knew....you dun say anything .i just wanna hear somethings from you.its like i am watch ing you from afar looking out for you from afar....its sickening and painful.i will have to leave...and when i do i wont wanna see you anymore....enough ....u killed me enough!

went out with rei today.....did not do anything....waited three hours to cut her bloody hair....hahahah

2005-09-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

its as if u dun exist in my life anymore...u cme and go....bugging me at times ....i am suppose to acknowledge u whenever u are acknowledging me ,i dun understand u!i try to forget.i trt to forget but i just cant.i dun know what to say anymore.i try to tell myself its alright.hahaha......

anyway today went out with my mum .went shopping.....bought billabong.